Wednesday, August 27, 2008

oh nancy

i officially declare that i believe our (well, she's not my speaker) Speaker of the House, Nancy Pelosi, to be profoundly stupid. profoundly profoundly stupid.



Speaker Pelosi's Unnatural Gaffe


By INVESTOR'S BUSINESS DAILY Posted Tuesday, August 26, 2008 4:20 PM PT
Energy Policy: The speaker of the House touts natural gas as an "alternative fuel like wind." Could it be that this time she's put her money where her mouth is?

Somewhere in the universe there may be a planet where natural gas is considered an alternative form of energy, but on this one it's still considered a fossil fuel.
Yes, it's clean-burning — "the cleanest of all fossil fuels," as the Natural Gas Supply Organization puts it. But it's still a fossil fuel formed deep within the earth, like its coal and petroleum cousins, by extreme pressure and heat.
Speaker Pelosi, who has taken a lot of heat and pressure herself for leading this "drill nothing" Congress, talked on Sunday's "Meet The Press" about an energy policy as incoherent as that of her party's presidential candidate, Barack Obama.
"I believe in natural gas as a clean, cheap alternative to fossil fuels," she said at one point. Natural gas "is cheap, abundant and clean compared to fossil fuels," she said at another.
She may be forgiven for her confusion. It's hard to be Speaker, dictate U.S. energy policy and manage your energy investments all at the same time.
Moderator Tom Brokaw asked about her investments in "clean" energies such as wind and natural gas as she tries to block the development of additional resources of competing energy such as petroleum. She said she and her husband have between $50,000 and $100,000 invested in T. Boone Pickens' Clean Energy Fuels.
"But, that is — that is the marketplace," she replied, explaining that the market is so big her meager investment was trivial and irrelevant. "That's not the point," she said. "I'm investing in something I believe in." Oh. And here we thought investments were made on the expectation of profit.
The fact is, as syndicated columnist Michelle Malkin reports, the Speaker's 2007 financial disclosure form Schedule III lists "Assets and Unearned Income" of between $101,000 and $250,000 from Clean Energy Fuels Corp. (CLNE) Public Common Stock. All on the expectation of, uh, windfall profits?
Federal lands, according to the American Petroleum Institute, hold 651 trillion cubic feet of natural gas, enough to fuel 60 million households for 160 years. Some 420 trillion cubic feet of natural gas, according to the U.S. Minerals Management Service, can be found in the Outer Continental Shelf.
According to a new report by Navigant Consulting, there could be as much as 842 trillion cubic feet of retrievable natural gas in shale formations around the country, formations estimated to contain as much as two trillion barrels of crude — seven times Saudi Arabia's known reserves.
Domestic natural gas production was up 8.8% the first five months of this year compared with last. Most of the gain came from shale, particularly the Barnett Shale formation near Fort Worth, Texas.
Barnett is the first shale field to be developed, and gas production has increased 10 times since 2001. This field now accounts for 7% of domestic natural gas production, and there's much more to be had — if Pelosi and friends allow it.
So why is Pelosi blocking the opening up of these areas? Isn't it a tad schizophrenic to block exploration for an energy source you tout at the same time?
The answer may be that oil and natural gas are usually found in the same place at the same time. Such was the case at Prudhoe Bay, just 60 miles west of the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge, where Pelosi and her Democratic friends block drilling for either.
It's worth noting that in Colorado, home to the Democratic National Party Convention, producing natural gas is big business. In 2006, more than $7 billion worth was produced from over 20,000 wells with nary a windmill in sight.
We're not against true alternative forms of energy. We're all for American forms of energy and believe we should produce as much as we can everywhere we can in all forms. Then all the American people, and not just Nancy Pelosi, can profit.



ha. i digress..
also, i'm pretty sure she's either an alien or over-botoxed... or both?

Thursday, August 21, 2008

tall enough to touch the sky?

a spiritual awakening is what?

a dream? an escape from physical life and into the blissful realm of a perfect world within an imperfect world, humanistically speaking.

participating in events that spark the dead youth in the pits of your heart and soul?  Or a re-awakening of your heart as a whole?

relentlessly pursuing a vivid dream of immortality inspired by everything that birthed mortality.

a dream that represents everything contradictory about human existence.  I am the earthworm, wriggling across the hot summer pavement...  and it is at that moment amongst the confusion of uncertainty
pain
loneliness
blindness
fatigue

that we realize...
the only security we have in the most insecure world is that love will save my life and my physical death will not be death, it will be my birth... 



yet another

i know that my vast array of avid blog readers that check my blog every two seconds are extremely disappointed. but avast, i am a slacker by nature. God made me that way... so there.

life has been good. ups and downs, but goiod. life has changed, some for the better and some for worse, but regardless, i am changing and creating and living life for him. i have had a rough month though. that change for the better change for the worse part of life, what if you cant tell whether or not that change is better or worse? like a dream that you cant be startled out of... what then?
eh.. (i use ellipsis' alot, i know) i 'll figure it out.

"catch for us the foxes"

Sunday, May 4, 2008

choking on this, choking on that...

Gosh.
I have had rough points in my life, and i am deffinitely having one right now.
I really try and learn from these rough spots, but it's so difficult to look outside of yourself and see the big picture. It's even more difficult to not let your circumstances overtake you...

I can only try and learn, i'll do my best.

The other night a thunderstorm rolled into lawrence, So I went to the clinton lake dam, which sits atop the hills surrounding our fair city. From this glorious point i marveled at the might of gods work. All i could think while i saw the lightning being birthed from the swirling clouds, striking the ground, and retracting back into the safety of the black was, good job jesus. simple, significant, good job jesus.


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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

catharsis for my love

Oh my father.
I am null…
A friend
A family
A brother
Fantasy
Despised
Cast away
Null
Seamless
Lost
Afraid
Found
Brave
Progressive
Lovely
Beautiful
Meaningless
Meaningful
Angry
Joyful
Loved…

Catharsis for my loved ones, catharsis for my enemies.
Oh my love. What beautiful love.



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Monday, April 21, 2008

you're wrapped around my ankles. stomach in knots, purged of emotion, coffee and blood clots.

My mind is in a constant state of turmoil and I feel as though I am stuck in a perpetual state of uncertainty and disillusionment.

I have this funny feeling, this nagging sensation in the back of my mind. It's this weird feeling that I want to not want material objects, so I can be unattached to this world, and in a strong sense, free.

I have felt this aching in my heart for the last couple weeks when I awoke, and I just recently pinpointed what was causing this. Deep down in my soul, I fear the very notion of uncertainty, which is not a good thing to be afraid of when the world we live in is completely irrational, unstable, and thus uncertain. I try to correct these things that I consider “flaws” in my character, but I just create more uncertainty.

I need to embrace life; I need to accept what I cannot change. When my grandma died, my family uncovered a large amount of poetry that she had written over the years. One of the poems discussed the act of embracing your circumstances. “Embrace the cancer,” she said.

I live only because of love.

Love others, love yourself, remember that you are special – mind, body, heart, and soul.

Love the uncertainty, because it provides a gateway to my dad and the ways in which he teaches me to live.

I am a scattered mess, but I love being a scattered mess.
I am an emotional person, but I love being able to feel.
I am clumsy and the exact opposite of smooth, but I love that about myself.

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